A journey through hell.

Every morning when i wake up to go to school, I hear myself asking the same question,"Do I really need to go to school today?". Its not that i dread going to school or anything, but its mainly because I'm a major procrastinating lazy pig. The trip to school is what irks me out actually.
The journey so to speak, is long and sometimes seems never-ending. But the the stuff that amuses me during the journey is note-worthy.
I have to take 2 buses to school everyday. Thank God, I no longer have to battle the morning crowd, as my lectures now start at a human-ly time.
When I board the first bus, a chinese serial plays. From what I discovered, its the encore serial of last night, from channel 8. Every head faces the mobile TV. Every pair of eyes is glued to it. Except mine. I admit that I have stolen glances too, but very rarely. Probably during the times where I'm searching for my i-Pod in my bag. I'm starting to think that people only board the buses to catch the show. Students, housewives reeking of the infamous 'market stench', old folks, simply enjoy the show. I, on the other hand feel irritated to watch the damn show every day, with the same cast rambling about some trivial antics with the repulsive dressing sense. And worst of all its in Mandarin. The language, sorry to say irks me out. Its really annoying. Imagine listening to it every morning. And, most importantly, why is it that they show a Chinese drama? This doesn't at all validate the existence of the other races in our multi racial society.
Next, when I alight at the next bust stop to get into the next connecting bus, the unsightly bus stop is a must stay-away. Its filthy with litter and sights of spats of salivation is unnoticeable. Its disgusting to even think of seating. The ungracious old folks have no qualms to cough and spit on the floor with every one looking. The sight of my bus is a sigh of relief.
Now, comes the long journey to school, which so happens to be non-air con, most of the time. Its blazing in the afternoon sun. But the somewhat sadist public transportation-is ts, insist on letting the non-aircon rickety shit( according to Santhiyaa) travel across the island. Thank god for my sunblock. Not only is it, warm in the sweltering heat, its wobbly too. You can forget about even catching a nap.I dare not take my-Pod out from my bag. If it falls, so does my heart.
Finally, I reach my destination.
As fares hike, so should the service.

Adjustments

Why is it so difficult for some people to make adjustments for the ones you love?

Its always the thought that counts. But, why do some fail to even think?

I always thought that a relationship, be it love or when it comes to friendship, based on making adjustments will always flourish.

But, what happens when there's always only 1 person making the adjustments?

There are too many questions to be answered. But, the answer lies with us I guess.

'Squeeze & the City'

As I was queuing up to be seated in 'n.y.d.c.' on a Friday night with my girlfriends, it suddenly occurred to me that, waiting to be seated in a restaurant in Singapore is becoming the norm. This reminds me of 'Sex & City', where the there's always subtle emphasis that New York's hip restaurants are almost impossible to get in unless you're a 'somebody', a.k.a. Carrie or Samantha, according to them.
Anyway, getting back to the main topic, It can get frustrating to wait a long time to be seated on weekends especially when you're starvation central.This trend is not only obvious in town, but basically any place hip enough to be patronised by Singaporeans.
Thinking of a place to dine and to chill out can be a nerve- wreaking process, but the thought of not getting a place is even more irritating. Is it that Singapore is too small or that Singaporeans are oblivious to the GST hike???
Its widely understood that Singaporeans toil throughout the week, then why are they not resting at home but out, making it impossible to find a place to eat, let alone find a parking spot.
There have never been a time where I've regretted driving on weekends, aimlessly trying to find a parking spot. It's already bad enough, that I have to battle with the slow moving traffic, ERP charges etc.
Well, I am starting to think that we are the 'tiny red dot' after all.

Memoirs Of A Critique.

I have a confession.

Mostly, I write people comments in friendster, only to recieve one back.
There, I've said it!

Thats because friendster is annoyingly lame and boring. Though, its a leisurely avocation for me as I can literally die laughing.

No,I'm not getting defensive.

Bottomline- Friendster is such a farce! Ha ha! Kudos to the Deplorables!

Random(ness)

Its 2.27 a.m. Yes, I am up, though not known to be a daily nocturnal creature, I have my days.

Ironically,its not because of boredom that I'm not asleep now. Its because I am hyped up about something else( in a good way) which i would cease to mention, or that would just be washing my dirty linen in public. Randomly speaking, I've come to see that, that's what many bloggers are 'naively' doing-Talking about their personal stuff going on in their lives, which are really pathetic, especially the ones about their sorry relationships.

Anyway, getting back to the main topic, which I've been digressing( obviously); even at this wee hour of the night, all that's stuck to my head, is about, how is that some of us fail to see that doing foolish stuff indirectly, is not going to get us any attention.

OK, enough of this random(ness), I shall go back to talking to Him....That was a long shower...Indeed.

To Forgive and Forget.

The rage you show in a relationship can come back to haunt you.

The anger that you might have shown during the relationship, may portray you as a beast. Sometimes, you may even feel that there's no forgiveness for such a beast and so the relationship is over.

However, to come to think about it, how long does the anger last actually?
Anger subsides, but jeopardising the relationship for something that's short-lived is not worth it I guess.

True, the hurt you felt will never be justified nor fade away like anger.But just how long do we stay angry?

The past is over. The main thing is that the 'beast' has realized 'its' mistake. Starting over with a new beginning wouldn't hurt.

The Past- Something to be forgotten, not used against.

The Cranky Combi

I hate waking up with a bad sore throat. I swear silently every time I do. I instantly do a mental checklist of all the great food a.k.a. unhealthy stuff I ate the night before.
'Drink alot of water' is the first thing anyone would say the minute they hear about a bad throat. But how much does it really help at that point of time when all I want is a miraculous instantaneous relief from the pain?
Lozenges,Strapsils, Tussils, or whatever is it, does not work for me at all, period! It just gets worse, I'm beginning to think.
It reaches its peak, when the season finale arrives- the trio of flu, cough and a cold.
Is it just me or is it the same for everyone else? ( I know the answer is ridiculously simple, but when you are pushed to your wits end, i guess this is exactly what you'll be thinking of).
Well, there's only one part to this whole sickly confinement thats somewhat soothing- the drowsiness you feel after you take your medication. It makes me feel high, like I'm on drugs or something, but the feeling is damn right pleasurable.
The crashed-out sleep is much sought after. I resort to the infamous cough syrups, whenever i can't sleep, even when I'm perfectly fine. It becomes an addiction after a while i guess, but NO, I'm not a druggie!

Somethingonomics

The day I've been dreading for so many months, is finally arriving- Tom morrow-9Th May .

My semester exams are starting tom morrow. Economics, as controversial as it sounds, my most cumbersome yet most liked module is the first on the 'platter'. Looking at the colorful eccentric diagrams(copyright of Punitha) and the profound theories & laws, makes my head spin. The hopeful thought, that this is probably the last time looking at them is not really helping too, as I am well aware of the more bothersome economics modules my poor soul has to study next semester.

I've been looking at them for quite a while, i can safely say. But how much is ever enough?

I've seen many others who will be reading their notes-cum-treasures, till the very last minute, with a disappointed-cum-angry look putting aside their notes-cum-treasures to enter the examination hall.

After much thought( it was for like 5 Min's actually), I've come to think that maybe its the whole exam scene which gives me the nervous vibes. The whole atmosphere of students in groups everywhere struggling to get some last minute stuff into their heads(Which they are well aware that it doesn't work), the still & cold surrounding with never ending rows & columns of tables and chairs, the blank-expression ed invigilators and so,which makes exams even more frightful.

Well, now that I've come to terms with my fears, It shouldn't be that bad after all. I'll still bring my notes, just in case i have time to read them in the bus or something(though i am very sure this is mainly for self-consolation).

Social Obligations

The first thing that crosses my mind when I see an invitation card is, what do I wear to the party!
Being a self-proclaimed social butterfly, I love parties! But attending them becomes a chore after a while I guess.
The whole hype about getting dressed comes along with rushing to get ready within the quickest time possible, as I'm always late. But, its a good feeling to feel good about yourself in your party-wear.
I look forward to the food, but more for the desserts or the birthday cake. I have a major sweet tooth. The drinks are never enough though, can't decide whether its because I talk too much when I'm having fun or because I make alot of 'small talks'.( the obligatory hellos to people whom you don't really know.) Getting a gift, is another headache as I don't believe in photo frames.I take time to choose the appropriate gifts.
I can get bored easily when am in parties, so I carry out my infamous hobby- people watch. It surprises me to see that some people(adults) have no social etiquette. Some forget about being socially eloquent in the pretext of seeking attention.
I really hate boring parties, where the atmosphere is still, the emcee is cracking lame jokes, the crowd laughs for everything etc. I think that these boring events don't do justice to my time spent dressing up. I know this sounds bimbo-tic, but I for one, takes alot of effort to dress up, which I normally don't.
I love parties,in which I laugh till I have tears in my eyes and by the time I get back, most of make -up is gone, coz I was too busy to touch-up.( Something which i don't do)!
Parties- Troublesome Indulgence.

Bliss, Fuss, Relationships.

Affairs of the heart, are thought to be not as just sweet romance, but a reflective passage to many. All the relationship norms come into play, with making adjustments by both individuals, being the most critical, i should say. But how far would one give in to make it work?

Every individual has a right to take their stand at the end of the day. Going all out to make it work, because you believe in it- an act of perseverance or more problems in days to come?

Well, i think problems are temporary, but whats important is the endurance to face the consequences, as a couple.

Studyin Makes My Head Go Round

This is the time of the year that I dread most- the exams period.

Firstly, I suck in making sacrifices to burn the midnight oil. (Burning the midnight oil is totally foreign to me anyway). I need my quality time to do the stuff I like, i.e. go to the cinema, hang out, window shop, or even eating out. I cannot completely forsake these stuff to make my time more productive by studying, something which my mum would love me to.

However, this does not at all mean that I don't know my priorities. Its just that I need time to de-stress too, who doesn't?

Well, as much as it sounds weird, I kinda actually like the whole monotonous studying, maybe because I feel good as i am more aware of what I'm studying, like a consolation. However, at the end of the tunnel are the exams.

The debate about whether exams are still necessary is still going on, though its becoming less audible. I guess we, as beings caught in a rat race, have come to terms with the reality. We have accepted our fate as such and realize that exams are some things we can't do without.

Exams- a test of credibility or a farce of gratification?

This Fashion- A Total Knockoff.

I entered This Fashion( Dhoby Ghuat) yesterday, just to buy a dress which i set my eyes on last week. It was a lively Saturday Night last week and while waiting for Mr late, i walked into This Fashion(Somerset).

For starters, i don't really patronise This fashion only when i need last min party dresses. When i made my way up to the second level to look for my catch, i realized that the designs of numerous outfits there seemed very familiar. I had seen the exact designs in Bysi, Topshop, Myphosis, FNT, even Fox tees were everywhere, costing as cheap as 5 bucks.

I was greatly amused, and smiled to my self. Its definitely cheaper over here, so i don't really mind the knockoff dresses(only some dresses). I realized that their market ting strategies are actually getting them somewhere, but the blaring Chinese music is a MUST-GO. Moreover, the only This fashion outlets which i can safely trust( for their selected range of dresses and sometime blouses ONLY) are the ones in town, to be more specific, i only go to the one in Dhoby Ghaut.

I remember stepping into other outlets and the designs were a total turn off, not forgetting their blaring music to top it all. the designs reminded me of Chinese new year, which they seem to be celebrating all year round, typical of chings' 'acquired' taste.

Anyway, i am satisfied with the dress i bought and am happy with the price, ha ha.

p.s. its a silky white tube dress with black designs on it, with black laces to tie a bow at the back.